In the mind of juliabadbutt

Whatsup buttheads,

So today I was so out of it. I've been so busy this week that I once again had to do reevaluations after I do something amazing with my life I like to reevaluate everything to see where I can go next also when I find myself hating my life I reevaluate to see what to change to make it better. This is one of those rare occasions where it was because something great in my life has happened. I got my very first intern this week who right now is taking care of organizing my first business she's so great man she worked her butt off and so polite I love her already and can't wait to spoil her for all her hard work. We sold on my calendars in the very first hour !!! I had to order more so people can still buy and support ! I'm going to be coming out and opening a new online business in very excited but I will now need a team there is absolutely no way I can do this alone anymore. Anyways today when I was re evaluating my life I was watching the law of attraction for some new inspiration or some sorta sign to add some spice and knowledge to my life I've come to the realization being funny is my God given talent God wants me to use this talent to become big BUT my calling is to inspire he gave me my talent to become famous and once o do I'm gonna inspire with motivation to people like me who grew up in poverty or no support from friends or work to think out of the box. I wanna inspire everything though, to not be afraid , to manifest happiness , that women have the power to accomplish just as much as men , I want you guys to stop thinking of getting a promotion and your job and open up your own business ! Be the change you want to see in the world ! Stop telling your big ideas to small minds. The moment you tell your dream to someone small minded and you hear the words "that's impossible" leave them , walk away. . You know what you're capable of don't let anyone ever Come in between that.i will tell you I have failed so many times in my life but every failure is such a bigger blessing you learn so much from every bad thing that has happened to you . The bigger the failure the bigger the blessing I can promise you that. I fail like 10 times a week. For every 99 no's I get I get 1 yes and I learned to accept it finally  Anyways positive vibes guys I love you and stay blessed 

Emotionally incapable

Hey guys how are you how are you

So let me explain for those of you new readers my name is Julia and I've been writing my life in blogs on the interet since I was 7th grade. 

Anyways I kinda wanted to just talk on the subject of family so if you here to read my thoughts, or maybe take this as advice cause your probably going through the same thing. I hope you enjoy 

So here i goooooo

 family is such a beautiful thing guys you should always cherish the ones who love you the most. Family doesn't even have to be blood related anyone you just consider real family who has showed youunconditional  love. Some kids don't even get to experience having parents. 

Always respect your parents. though parents can sometimes over worry and over react from over worrying they want it in your best interest .

Growing up I saw kids in in my class who always had name brand everything! Name brand shoes and name brand pants and name again everything down to their socks and underwear. And I was like "damn their parents must super love their kids cause they get whatever they ask for" my mom grew up in Mexico  so she wasn't playing that shit I got clothes from Ross and marshalls and platos closet. Ayeee but those clothes were still dope as hell IM not complainin. But I always wondered why other moms gave into everything their kids asked they were like the moms who if their son ever got in trouble for having weed they would pay for the best lawyer in the city just to get their kid out of trouble. That's how spoiled they were. If my mom knew I got caught with weed and my school wanted to send me to the school where all the bad kids get sent my mom would be like "that's your dumb ass fault you wanna go sell drugs again ?"

It wasn't until now that I'm a grown ass woman that without my mom not treating me like a child but an adult I wouldn't be the woman I am today. I will not use my parents as a crutch for my lifestyle. As I was about to graduate highschool my mom made it clear that I wasn't allowed to live in a house a day past 18 and guess what guys I left the house at 17, joined the army , got out. And against all odds continue to be successful. My mom did me such a huge favor of letting me know what was up. Not spoiling me to the point where I didn't work hard for things I really wanted in life. 

I will tell you guys reading this. My life wasn't easy growing up. I wasn't the best kid. I had this thing about me where I fell in love fast. And another thing with falling for guys too fast is when I broke up with one guys I would have another boyfriend within the week! But check this out. When I got a boyfriend I would literally spend my entire life with them from morning to goodnight. And it annoyed my parents. I mean why wouldn't it ? So the more I dated the more they got sick and tired of it like any other parents and before my 9th grade in highschool year was up my relationship with my parents was broken. We slowly stopped talking together I started spending my entire days in school and my school vacations locked up in my room. Everything I did around my mom not seeing her so often seemed to annoy her. Our relationship was so rocky since I pretty much gave all my attention to my boyfriends my mom probably thought when I was around her was only to ask for money and she probably felt used. Oidk. I just know it go to the point that when I was around my mom I felt so much tension and anxiety I didn't know if I was gonna get yelled at or put down. . 

Guys I wanna tell you something really strange about life. Life.goes.on

If something happened to you today and it made you hate your entire day. Just realize that today will be a yesterday , tomorrow. And YOU CAN NEVER GO BACK. So do not dwell but you can change your future and your choices and move forward and decide in your life how happy you want to be.

Everything in your life that has taken place from your birth til now was for a reason and you probably don't know what that reason is right now or 6 months down the line, u might not even figure it out for another two years but I promise you guys this. One day you will realize that every put in your life is only to make you strong and smarter for your next battle 

I'll leave you buttheads with this dope quote I used to read everyday walking into group therapy "someone i loved one gave me a box full of darkness, it took me years to understand that this too, was a gift"

Juliabadbutt