Update

So as everyone can tell I got a new Instagram I deleted my old account on accident somehow I thought I was logged into my back up page @ julia Joseph but came to the realization that I was actually loggedinto julia bad butt. Sure enough I'm here I haven't blogged in a few days just because every single time I think about what to blog about my mind is overwhelmed with so many things that are going on my in my life right now.where to start off? I am very unhappy with my life right now just when I thought still being in the army was the worst situation I could be in. So many small things just add on I think it all started when I went to check on my terminal leave to get out of the army 70 days early and I was informed that my terminal leave packet hadn't even been turned in I had been planning this for months I had turn in the paperwork two months ago to find out nothing has been started just took me to a all time low I have been waiting to get out of the Army for four years!!! Anyways I got in trouble last week for having my fingernails painted, along with that apparently my nails are too long next week I come ready to work very positive I even cut my hair to make myself feel better just to have an NCO tell me my hair was out of regulation . I was then told that I was going to get recommended for an article 15 if my NCO found out I was lying to my NCO about not knowing my nails were out of regulation my life just crumbled right before my eyes emotions that carried over from The stress I thought I was going through at home. I was going to her little with Claudia I even  went 4 days without talking to her. I was just so stressed out and scared to talk to anyone about it that I reached my boiling point and I knew I needed to get help right then and there I drove to behavioral health I started crying about every small thing going on in my life I told them sometimes I wish I wasn't alive I have been feeling bullied at work and I just needed an escape. I ended up fixing things with Claudia a few days later but now I'm on restrictions and I have to sleep in the barracks on posts I have to get checked on daily on their schedule not mine and it sucks not being able to do what I want to do really sucks I just want to get out my days now consist of group therapy five days a week six hours a day but honestly it's for the better things are starting to look up and I'm really learning more about myself which makes me happy.i'm learning about how to talk about my feelings with other people I'm learning how to trust sincerelybut most importantly I'm learning how to not run away from my problems everything is not okay right now but I know deep down everything will be very soon. 

Everything in life teaches you a lesson you just have to handle it the right way so here am searching for the right way to handle this.