Hey love?
How have you been? I've missed you a lot & have had you on my mind for so long! Life has been great with school, so great that sometimes I feel so guilty. I feel guilty because in school I'm So consumed by what I'm learning that I don't keep up with snapchat or putting out funny content on any of my social medias. I know I have to tighten up any day off isn't a good day. Anyways since you guys are my family I always promise to tell you everything raw about my life.
Last night I got a good 2 hour sleep after staying up watching short film on youtube with Ronald over text as inspiration for my screenwriting class project that was due 9 am today. I was so sleepy but Im so passionate about film that I cannot bear to attach my name to anything I am not proud of. I would have been devastated if I didnt come through with a cool movie there are so many talented people in my class and I just can't let myself fall behind while everyone else shines. I have to do my best and learn everything i can and apply everything I've learned to become the best film director in the history of directors.
Tori and I had this talk. The day I realized that she was different was this day we went to the gym and we got in an argument over uber. Tori has this personality where she's like this little infant child that constantly needs to be taken care of and like attended to. I told her to like order the uber or something and she always takes the easy way out when I ask for a favor i was just like "order an uber" and she was all "you do it I don't know how" I was so pissed because she didn't attempt to read. she told me something like "don't you ever speak to me that way don't ever talk to me again I don't need this friendship. I was kinda like "okay?" because I'm not really good with conveying my emotions and I left it at that. I come home to Tori wanting to talk about her feelings. Tory kinda just grew on me like mold. she like snuck her way into my heart and little by little forced her way in and made me love her. its weird. kinda creeps me about because we look up to each other and like telling each other how we feel and she gets jealous when i bring ANY one around me who's new. OH and if its a new girl friend she will fucking GO CRAZY
THIS week has just been soon long i don't remember the last time I left a normal days worth, I'm relaxing I'm going to continue to grown on my filmmaking and take all of life opportunities until the right on fall on my lap.. because it will
Julia
Wednesday, February 17, 2016
Tuesday, February 9, 2016
What keeps me going
Whats up my love,
Glad you came back to read another blog. Today I wanted to go over something simple, something I get asked quite often "what keeps me going from giving up"
theres a lot that keeps me going. There are so many things that have happened in my life that have lit this fire to lead me on this really dark path. From people telling me my ideas were dumb to other really telling me they actually believed in me. strange huh how the people so close to you can have such different thoughts you have on one ear "thats crazy you're ideas are nuts thats could never happen" and in the other "you have such a talent keep pushing"
I've gotten it all from " you're not funny" "you're weird" "stick to modeling" "you suck at modeling" "you're a disgrace to this earth" and quite honestly I don't know how I got through it myself.
there were many of those nights I could have swore I was going to give up because i didn't believe in myself but what kept me going in the bigger picture.
letting go of all my dreams and wondering "well what if" would be far more scary than anything in my entire life. I can't go through life wondering what it would be life if I didn't 100% and follow this dream I have to take over the world and speak about how easy it is to get through life if you just try .
I let everyone telling me I couldn't do it add to the fuel of the fire.
I let the people I looked up to and who also had a story just like mine lead me in sort of the right way without really ever speaking to me
and I let these vivid visuals of what I imagine my life to be keep me motivated to keep me on my toes and remember what I could potentially have out of life
hope you guys are all having a great day let me know what you guys want me to write about next.
Glad you came back to read another blog. Today I wanted to go over something simple, something I get asked quite often "what keeps me going from giving up"
theres a lot that keeps me going. There are so many things that have happened in my life that have lit this fire to lead me on this really dark path. From people telling me my ideas were dumb to other really telling me they actually believed in me. strange huh how the people so close to you can have such different thoughts you have on one ear "thats crazy you're ideas are nuts thats could never happen" and in the other "you have such a talent keep pushing"
I've gotten it all from " you're not funny" "you're weird" "stick to modeling" "you suck at modeling" "you're a disgrace to this earth" and quite honestly I don't know how I got through it myself.
there were many of those nights I could have swore I was going to give up because i didn't believe in myself but what kept me going in the bigger picture.
letting go of all my dreams and wondering "well what if" would be far more scary than anything in my entire life. I can't go through life wondering what it would be life if I didn't 100% and follow this dream I have to take over the world and speak about how easy it is to get through life if you just try .
I let everyone telling me I couldn't do it add to the fuel of the fire.
I let the people I looked up to and who also had a story just like mine lead me in sort of the right way without really ever speaking to me
and I let these vivid visuals of what I imagine my life to be keep me motivated to keep me on my toes and remember what I could potentially have out of life
hope you guys are all having a great day let me know what you guys want me to write about next.
Sunday, February 7, 2016
RE INTRODUCTION
Hey family!
Whatsup? I hope you guys are having a great weekend, and for those who aren't i hope you soon find your way back to happiness. I wanted to get into the topic of me and more about me so we can all be closer and so you know in this crazy world of mine I am more like YOU than you think. Theres a lot of bits and pieces behind being social media famous you wouldn't understand unless you yourself are in this position yourself. There is obstacles I face from having followers and there is a lot of great incentives that comes with followers. I live off social media, my bills are being paid for from social media, I wouldn't have two full closets of free clothes if wasn't for social media I wouldn't be able to network at the biggest events in los angeles if it wasn't for social media. but there are downfalls. I get looked down on buy other social media influencers who are doing the same thing as i am because of the language I use when i speak. I don't get taken seriously when it comes to guys because I'm so "out there" and men like a low-key women. I don't really have ANY opinion on the internet with out people constantly trying to bash me. theres a lot on my plate with trying to figure out what path I want to take and how to transition into who I want to become. I'm constantly in this mental battle with myself trying to figure out if I'm really doing the right thing with my life. sometimes I even question myself if I should just quit this life and just become a regular kid at some regular university. but I would probably miss it.
SO I have to tell you Ive had an online diary since the age of 14. I was 14 years old when i started writing online and it was weird because I wrote everyday all the pain I would feel wether it be family related or relationship related I would even write about how hard the army was for me when i served. I seemed to always find myself dealing with heartbreak my entire life and always never having anyone to really talk to about it. i kept it always bottled up and then I started writing hoping one day I would be famous and everything I had written one day would be seen by MILLIONS of people just like me and I could help them in some way go through what i been through I KNEW some day someone would write me a letter and tell me I helped them get through those rough day and because of me they didn't quit.
Well where do I start this is my new job.. blogging that is. lets start by introducing myself and where I'm at with my life right now.
I am 22 years old I am a college student at New york Film Academy in LA. I AM Mexican american i do speak spanish but I speak it with an american accent so I try to refrain from speaking spanish because i hate when people make fun of me about it. it kinda hurts my feelings but at the same time if i really cared about it i would probably try and learn. Im from florida but I was born in texas. I moved a couple times growing up because my dad was a farm worker. he worked in tomatoes and vegetables. I picked tomatoes myself a few times. I live in LA with tonioskits who's a social media influencer and leli who's a production assistant . I have a team of close friends who all help each other in life situations I have Joel his instagram is @beenwet who is my creative consultant which means he's in charge of my website and my emails and in charge of making sure I have everything I need. sometimes I boss joel around so much that I forget how much he does for me. Joel is a sweet guy he's the first and last genius I've ever met in my entire life. he's very quiet and when we have these talks I sometimes feel he's the only person who really understands me. we have these talks about life and how we believe the universe called onto us to live these greater lives and how there is people out there who will never really understand us. then there is Tori. My little sister who like the stunning model which her ig is @victoriavanna she's really feisty she knows a woman worth and never settles for anything less. she's really good with representation she kinda showed me a lot about how perception is reality I mean I knew reception i reality but I've seen her live that shit on all social media platforms so i know how real it is. she's so boy crazy its kinda weird because i can't even get one date if i begged for it. and guys literally throw themselves to be with her. then theres my right hand man Alex. his ig is @alexpolikaitis he's like 6 ft 6 inches he's really talk handsome little white guy. or tall guy I should say. he's a virgin and he's super christian but he's like my little brother because I'm trying to show his the ropes on this hollywood life. I'm trying to get his christian ways to rub on me though theres a lot in him i want in myself. love his sense of humor and how he's so kind to everyone he taught me not ever altercation has to end in fighting. and he keeps me mentally sane in school. He's into music and actually really good i like his drive whenever were not getting into trouble or partying he's in the corner of some room with his headphones on creating beats. I'm not really sure what I want out of life when people ask me what i want to be my career I don't really quite know. i know things I want to accomplish in life but to pick one career goal just isn't me i call myself a creator and there is so many things id like to create. I wanna create a feature film about my life one day and the things I've been through. (well get into my life later) I want to be in a huge comedy movie in the big screens one day. I want to sell out stand up comedy shows one day. I want to have my own show one day. but untimely I want to be the next oprah. that motivation speaker for people like me. that inspiration and the people who can help others.
well yeah hope you guys like my intro ill try and write in these everyday like i did when i was younger leave a comment i can't wait to hear from you guys xoxo
julia
Whatsup? I hope you guys are having a great weekend, and for those who aren't i hope you soon find your way back to happiness. I wanted to get into the topic of me and more about me so we can all be closer and so you know in this crazy world of mine I am more like YOU than you think. Theres a lot of bits and pieces behind being social media famous you wouldn't understand unless you yourself are in this position yourself. There is obstacles I face from having followers and there is a lot of great incentives that comes with followers. I live off social media, my bills are being paid for from social media, I wouldn't have two full closets of free clothes if wasn't for social media I wouldn't be able to network at the biggest events in los angeles if it wasn't for social media. but there are downfalls. I get looked down on buy other social media influencers who are doing the same thing as i am because of the language I use when i speak. I don't get taken seriously when it comes to guys because I'm so "out there" and men like a low-key women. I don't really have ANY opinion on the internet with out people constantly trying to bash me. theres a lot on my plate with trying to figure out what path I want to take and how to transition into who I want to become. I'm constantly in this mental battle with myself trying to figure out if I'm really doing the right thing with my life. sometimes I even question myself if I should just quit this life and just become a regular kid at some regular university. but I would probably miss it.
SO I have to tell you Ive had an online diary since the age of 14. I was 14 years old when i started writing online and it was weird because I wrote everyday all the pain I would feel wether it be family related or relationship related I would even write about how hard the army was for me when i served. I seemed to always find myself dealing with heartbreak my entire life and always never having anyone to really talk to about it. i kept it always bottled up and then I started writing hoping one day I would be famous and everything I had written one day would be seen by MILLIONS of people just like me and I could help them in some way go through what i been through I KNEW some day someone would write me a letter and tell me I helped them get through those rough day and because of me they didn't quit.
Well where do I start this is my new job.. blogging that is. lets start by introducing myself and where I'm at with my life right now.
I am 22 years old I am a college student at New york Film Academy in LA. I AM Mexican american i do speak spanish but I speak it with an american accent so I try to refrain from speaking spanish because i hate when people make fun of me about it. it kinda hurts my feelings but at the same time if i really cared about it i would probably try and learn. Im from florida but I was born in texas. I moved a couple times growing up because my dad was a farm worker. he worked in tomatoes and vegetables. I picked tomatoes myself a few times. I live in LA with tonioskits who's a social media influencer and leli who's a production assistant . I have a team of close friends who all help each other in life situations I have Joel his instagram is @beenwet who is my creative consultant which means he's in charge of my website and my emails and in charge of making sure I have everything I need. sometimes I boss joel around so much that I forget how much he does for me. Joel is a sweet guy he's the first and last genius I've ever met in my entire life. he's very quiet and when we have these talks I sometimes feel he's the only person who really understands me. we have these talks about life and how we believe the universe called onto us to live these greater lives and how there is people out there who will never really understand us. then there is Tori. My little sister who like the stunning model which her ig is @victoriavanna she's really feisty she knows a woman worth and never settles for anything less. she's really good with representation she kinda showed me a lot about how perception is reality I mean I knew reception i reality but I've seen her live that shit on all social media platforms so i know how real it is. she's so boy crazy its kinda weird because i can't even get one date if i begged for it. and guys literally throw themselves to be with her. then theres my right hand man Alex. his ig is @alexpolikaitis he's like 6 ft 6 inches he's really talk handsome little white guy. or tall guy I should say. he's a virgin and he's super christian but he's like my little brother because I'm trying to show his the ropes on this hollywood life. I'm trying to get his christian ways to rub on me though theres a lot in him i want in myself. love his sense of humor and how he's so kind to everyone he taught me not ever altercation has to end in fighting. and he keeps me mentally sane in school. He's into music and actually really good i like his drive whenever were not getting into trouble or partying he's in the corner of some room with his headphones on creating beats. I'm not really sure what I want out of life when people ask me what i want to be my career I don't really quite know. i know things I want to accomplish in life but to pick one career goal just isn't me i call myself a creator and there is so many things id like to create. I wanna create a feature film about my life one day and the things I've been through. (well get into my life later) I want to be in a huge comedy movie in the big screens one day. I want to sell out stand up comedy shows one day. I want to have my own show one day. but untimely I want to be the next oprah. that motivation speaker for people like me. that inspiration and the people who can help others.
well yeah hope you guys like my intro ill try and write in these everyday like i did when i was younger leave a comment i can't wait to hear from you guys xoxo
julia
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