Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Weight goals

Hey everyone it's Julia mother freaking Badbutt today I thought i thought I'd talk about my constant weight problem. 

I have this ocd about having the perfect body
 
I've wanted a boob job since the age of 16  I felt like my body would be more proportioned if I had bigger boobs and I thought I would looked skinnier if my boobs were bigger. So I saved and I saved and I bought my boobs at the age of 19 here are my before and after pictures 

Lol I look back at these pictures and don't even remember my boobs being this small. When I got my boobs done I had the perfect fit body I would run constantly and I was so in shape with these nice ass abs and legs. After I got my boobjob I stopped working out cause I was just incapable of lifting anything and my boobs hurt my back and I just used it as an excuse to eat like a fat slob I weight a good 135 pounds before my boob job. After everything was healed and I was capable of working out at the gym again i gains weight like crazy I was 160 pounds. Running 1 mile hurt my shins so bad to the point where I would have to stop every ten steps it was such an embarrassment. Especially having people around me seeing me struggle when I was once known as a "beast" after my boob job I never lost weight like I used to. I can't even do my push-ups the same. When I got to the point of 162 pounds I lost it and dedicated my life to the gym. I lose 20 pounds and weighed a great 140 and I felt great

I felt like the baddest bitch knowing i had it in me to control my weight I was discipline and I determined. I would meal prep and my life was 100 focused on fitness. Sad part about it was my whole like was centered around it I didn't have friends and I have no time to be happy and enjoy life. Yes being in shape made me happy but life without making videos and laughing and hanging out with friends made me sad. After I got to 140 I just stopped and enjoyed my weight. 

Here I am at 150 again and kinda sad. I was prepping for spring break and my boss once again said it would most likely not get approved so I got really depressed and I let my self get fat again. Eating and eating and eat. It sucks cause when I gain weight. I get really awkward rolls on my back I constantly have to try and find angles that hide it. I'm not used to being this thick  is used to weigh 120 

I stand around my friends and I'm always the biggest one. I wear like a size nine in jeans. When I'm alone I love it I'm like damn I got a fat ass I'm thick as fuck. But the way my stomach is set up I have really thick skin and when I sit down my fuck fat is just there dating back at me its hella fucking awkward. I love my thick legs but I don't like that my gut matches lol. Sometimes I'm like fuck I wanna be skinny but sometimes I'm like fuck I love my legs.

And here I am 30 pounds later. So this is crazy but I'm getting LIPO this summer. Cause it's my life. And I want to. I'm not telling anyone that's the only way you can be beautiful or I'm not disciplined enough to get my body back but my natural body shape would never allow me to get the curves I envision in my head. I love my body don't get me wrong I love me. But I want a tiny waist. I never asked to be anyone's role model I'm just simply sharing My story and saying its 2015 people are so judgmental for no reason. Accept people for who they are cause you'll be so much more happier 

DO want YOU want to do. You have one life to live.
 Leave comments or questions and I'll write back hope you enjoyed. Don't leave opinions though cause honestly mine is the only one that matters lol

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23 comments:

  1. AnonymousApril 29, 2015 at 10:00 PM

    👏👏👏👏👏 good shit Julia and always remember that last line

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  2. DZ3 CreativeApril 29, 2015 at 10:01 PM

    It was a pleasure meeting you and thank you for stopping for a photo. You're a beautiful person inside and out, buttt you already know that.) Peace, DZ3 Creative

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  3. UnknownApril 29, 2015 at 10:03 PM

    Wow this was beautiful! Stay positive and do what makes you happy babe! ❤️🌻

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  4. CindeeLoveApril 29, 2015 at 10:06 PM

    That's dope I loved reading your Blog...you're as real as they get... You're already beautiful but there's nothing wrong with wanting a little upgrade... You just pumped me up to get my boobs done lol

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  5. UnknownApril 29, 2015 at 10:07 PM

    I just love you😻

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  6. UnknownApril 29, 2015 at 10:18 PM

    I just love you😻

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  7. UnknownApril 29, 2015 at 10:18 PM

    I just love you😻

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  8. AnonymousApril 29, 2015 at 10:20 PM

    This might be a bit personal so don't answer if you think it is lol but I've been debating if to get my boobs done or not but what size were you originally and what size did you go to because I like that you didn't get like a huge difference in size and they still look normal

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    1. JuliabadbuttApril 29, 2015 at 10:26 PM

      I was a 32 c and when to a 34d

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    2. UnknownApril 29, 2015 at 11:04 PM

      Really reconsider lipo... I've known many girls including my ex that got it done only to bounce back to the original weight and be left with a bunch of bullet hole looking scars everywhere. Do as you please but I'm a strong anti lipo advocate for pretty girls such as yourself. Ciao

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  9. UnknownApril 29, 2015 at 10:37 PM

    I'm thinking of joining the army and going active, what advice would you give me??

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  10. UnknownApril 29, 2015 at 10:39 PM

    Hey would you be able to post a before and after picture once its done I'd love to see your results..&& I've been thinking about it as well and it always stops me to think people would probably judge but after reading this my motivation went up again😺

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  11. UnknownApril 29, 2015 at 10:40 PM

    Hey would you be able to post a before and after picture once its done I'd love to see your results..&& I've been thinking about it as well and it always stops me to think people would probably judge but after reading this my motivation went up again😺

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  12. UnknownApril 29, 2015 at 10:48 PM

    I am getting mine done soon ! How did you pick a surgeon ? I am so freaked into getting the perfect one....and saline or...? I just love how really they look !

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  13. UnknownApril 29, 2015 at 11:49 PM

    She is my crush yal. Marry me Julia

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  14. UnknownApril 29, 2015 at 11:51 PM

    Julia, you look really gorgeous as you are now, but if that's what makes you happy, than do it, just think before anything. You are an inspiration to a lot of ppl, an I love your videos 😊. But really, do another before and after, you are the only 1 to have the power to lift your spirits an make yourself happy. Hope to meet you someday, since you are in Fl lol GOD bless

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  15. UnknownApril 30, 2015 at 2:37 AM

    Julia you're already an awesome/amazing person. If this makes you happier I support you because I know that you'll feel better about yourself, therefore you'll become 10x more amazing. Just stay strong, and stay true to yourself. P.s at first I was confused, I was like isn't this supposed to be her mom

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  16. UnknownMay 10, 2015 at 8:56 PM

    Perfect diosa just as u are

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  17. UnknownMay 13, 2015 at 7:56 AM

    Hello. Well let me just say that your boobs came out amazing. I decided to get mine done back in 2011 but haven't done so because I keep switching surgeons. If you don't mind I'd like to know the name of yours so I could check out their work. Yours are so perfect!!

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  18. UnknownMay 13, 2015 at 7:57 AM

    Hello. Well let me just say that your boobs came out amazing. I decided to get mine done back in 2011 but haven't done so because I keep switching surgeons. If you don't mind I'd like to know the name of yours so I could check out their work. Yours are so perfect!!

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  19. UnknownOctober 23, 2015 at 5:27 AM

    sooooo I'm in the marine corps and sadly I have 3 years until my EAS date and idk if I'm gonna make it , my weight causes so much stress for me especially since even in bootcamp I was never that size and honestly I'm like terrified of working out - there's more to the story but I don't want to bore you or poor my whole shit out not even get replied (that would be embarrassing lol) idk I guess just need advice or a lil motivation , idk

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  20. UnknownDecember 4, 2015 at 3:14 PM

    Julia you're such a badass! You're living the life I'm working for. I too want to become a director and attend the school you're currently attending. Money is the problem !! You do you Julia!! You're awesome ! You helped break my insecurity for green hair and now I'm dying my hair green because dark skinned girls can rock it too lol

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  21. UnknownDecember 4, 2015 at 3:14 PM

    Julia you're such a badass! You're living the life I'm working for. I too want to become a director and attend the school you're currently attending. Money is the problem !! You do you Julia!! You're awesome ! You helped break my insecurity for green hair and now I'm dying my hair green because dark skinned girls can rock it too lol

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